i want to publicly thank twig for getting rid of the scrollchair. i couldn't figure out where to go in the javascript to get rid of the scrollchair. i like it alot more like this. thanks, twigchair!!

i'm learning that i need to prioritize my life more. i need discipline. so i'm arranging a schedule to keep my days organized. so, if you want to see me, all you'll need to do is schedule an appointment. ok, that was a joke. but i may say "no" more often. i am overwhelmed lately b/c i've been trying to do EVERYTHING. my schedule has been overlapping itself. i end up trying to do two things at the same time. it can't happen like that anymore. i'm going to balance my days so i can give each part of my life the proper attention it needs without having to cancel one thing b/c i forgot there was something else i was going to do right then also.

this problem also applies to my eating habits, believe it or not. there are times where i am offered food several times in a day. i usually would say yes to all offers. but i need more discipline. this is part of taking care of God's temple; ME!! it's as much spiritual maturity as it is physical maturity.

it's time for me to grow up. things are going to change. i'm going to start taking care of myself. some of you know that i love others alot, but at times i can't stand myself. that's why on june 2 i wrote that it's hard to love myself and that i wasn't satisfied with who i am. God's doing a change in me. at first i thought i was just depressed. i was only becoming depressed b/c i did nothing about what God was laying on my heart. as Pasor Gay says, "impression, without expression, leads to depression." i believe this is all part of God's plan for my life.