Work ended early today. Since it's Friday and we've been limited to 40hr work weeks until further notice. I only had to work 1/2 the day. It was an easy day too. We located a few columns, a wall, and marked out the location for an elevator pit at a certain construction site we frequent. Yesterday was fun too. We surveyed a lake from Jimmie's boat. There was a tree almost eaten all the way through by a beaver. There was a 6" piece still holding the tree together at the bottom. We say several snakes swimming in the water. One got about three feet from me. I pushed it out of my way with a pole. There were turtles out there too. I love the outdoors. I think I'll go camping or something soon. I need a vacation.

So, what's new with me...Let's see. I broke my RC truck again. I fixed it though. I'm learning more from breaking and fixing it than from driving it. I plan on going to the track tomorrow to race.

I put in my application to New Orleans. If I'm accepted I'll go to N.O. first then back to school. Otherwise, I'm going back to school, full-time. Either way I think school is important right now and I'll kick myself if I don't go. I want a better education and I want to be able to apply myself more.

I've been feeling kinda down lately. I think it's because I haven't had much direction or goals in my life as of lately. I plan on changing that, now. If it's God's will for me to go to N.O. then I will do that first. If not, I making plans to finish school right away. I don't feel like full-time work is cutting it for me. I have money yes, but I'm not satisfied. Money is so empty. It only complicates life. I want...What do I want? I want to be happy, satisfied with my life. That might not mean an easy life though. I want to know I put my best foot forward. Not finishing school!? It's making me feel incomplete. It's not a peer-pressure/parental-pressure/social-pressure thing. It's for me. Is that selfish? Does God want me to go back to college?

I need to clear my mind. I want to get away from all the distractions and surround myself with God. I only want to be with Him right now. I need Him so much. I feel like I can't get away though. I've been feeling like that for a long time. I'm trapped, surrounded, overwhelmed. I've been hearing so many other voices talking about this and that and the other thing that I should do. Be apart of disaster relief in New Orleans, raise awareness of child soldiers in Uganda, fight social injustice, finish college, get married, save the planet. The are so many issues out there. I want to be apart of them all. I feel like if I don't I'm not compassionate enough. I wonder if Jesus felt as limited in being able to help as I do. He was human. He couldn't be everyewhere at once. Lazureth died because Jesus didn't make it to him in time, right?