Since I drank alot at The Shed and at the going away party for Harrison (two nights in a row), I decided to put myself on a strict no beer diet. It's not really a diet. We all know how silly me and diet sounds together. But anyway, I feel I lack the control I thought I had.

It's been hard to stick to it too. The first day I found it hard to say no. We went to another party the very next night after Harrison's (it's Christmas time I guess) and there was beer. I had a tough time but I didn't have any. I left the party early to go hang out with a few other friends. We played some poker and there was beer there too. It was a bit tougher there b/c I was being pressured into it alittle. But I didn't have any. I'm glad too b/c I had to drive my friend back home. But it was alot tougher than I thought it would be.

My biological father was an alcoholic. I always told myself I wasn't going to end up like him. His drinking was primarily the reason he left my mom and I when I was 14 months old. I will not put my family through anything like that.

So, for now, until I feel I have better self-control, I won't be doing any drinking.