oh crap it worked...i posted again and it updated...i must not be technologically retarded...perhaps i'm only retarded

i can't get the stupid scrolling marque to update. i must be technologically retarded

the first four hours of work today were pointless.
however, i finally got some legitimate work to do after lunch.
what a difference it made. it felt like it was worth being there...at least for the 2nd half of the day.

one of the nice ladies at my work asked if i had a "significant other" yet. people are asking this more now. it doesn't annoy me that they ask. it's that i have to say no every time. it's like an infectious disease. it's eating away at me. i want to be able to say yes. i want a girlfriend. but God wants me to wait. he's got other things he wants to deal with...whatever they are (i could use a clue God!).

you know your getting fat when you sweat just sitting there and it's only 70. i need to loose like fourty or fifty pounds. my doctor told me i should weigh like 170-180. i'm 2 freakin' 20.

an ironic thing is happening here. people used to visit my blog site when i never blogged for months...now i blog like crap every day (at least for the past three days) and no one freakin' hit's this site anymore. oh yeah, and now that i am checking my emails again no one's emailing me either. GRRRRRRR!! i'm suddenly lonely :(

well, i'm going to make like a twig and branch off........(that was so dwaynish).........CK1

wow, work sucked today. out of the eight hours i was there i did about two hours of actual work. there is nothing to do anymore. i'm glad that i'm getting my resume updated and that people are offering me possible jobs. it's possible that by tomorrow a few people at my work could be fired. i hope it all works out ok. say a prayer for me and my co-workers.
man, i'm beginning to have such an urge to get a computer and the internet. i want to play absolute poker. i want to im people (i have someone specifically in mind). and i want to blog without going to the library where people can read over my shoulder. HEY!! WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT? GO SIT DOWN!! sorry...see what i mean!
i offered to do something for larry fronk but i know i'm probably not going to do it. it's already late. he told me i had until this sunday, or at least that is what i think he said. but either way, this thing is too hard for me to do. i bit off more than i could chew. i don't have the courage to say i can't do it. especially b/c it's so late already. i don't have the courage to even talk to him about it. that's why i didn't go to church this wednesday (yesturday). it's been driving my insane. and it's some big important thing. it's not like i can get away with not doing it. he needs it for a meeting with people. i so freaking screwed up here.

if i had my own computer and internet i'd be online alot. and therefore i'd blog alot too. but until i get all that i have come up with a solution to my computer needs problem. after work i'll go to the library, every day that i can, and blog , or email, or read blogs, or watch homestar be retarded...i mean special.
for the past couple days i've been at the library online. that's why walker say at SCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC for awhile until i got home. yeah, he was 15 minutes away from my house right. so he has ashley call me from houghton!?! to ask for a ride home!?!
he couldn't find a cell phone so he instant messages her online and has her call me. technology is amazing. it's like when i'd call joe's old cell phone. he'd be 10 minutes away but the call would go out to pennsylvania and then to him. therefore it would be a freaking long distance call. i could call him standing right next to me and it would be a long distance call.
so i went to get walker while joe was making dinner. bad mistake. joe got really upset. and i can understand why. like he said, he's not my bitch. so i'll try to work it out better next time.
joe's a good cook. sad to say but it's better than my mom's cooking. she makes everything kind of bland and boring. but only b/c my brothers have such demanding tastes. it has to be just right or they think it'll kill 'em.
my only problem is that i choke on my food alot. like on sunday when i choked on the chips. i don't understand though. i had to get my hands free to pour a drink...so i ate the rest of the chips in my hands first. i didn't want to keep choking. i needed to get a drink. but i can't do that if me hands are full. wow, this is what happens when you don't blog forever. it all comes out at once...like a turd that's been brewin' for a while.

my blog didn't break. i forgot my password and didn't know how to recover it. but guess what, i recovered it.
so since everyone thinks i never blog, i expect that no one will be reading this. why visit a site that it as boring as mine, right? hopefully people might stumble apon it again. maybe i'll tell them about it...again. and they still may never go back. it was boring even when i was blogging regularly...if you can call it regularly. it was for me anyway.
got to get back to work. see you all around... i guess.