something has got to give. and i know what it is. God and I need some time alone. i need to readjust my lifestyle before i go to my (mission year). it comes at the sacrifice of my friends. i want to be with them. alot. but it won't work unless i do this. i need to be alone, until God says different.

 why God? why right when i want to be with them the most? why right before i leave them? i hate this...but i know i have to. if i don't, it'll kill me.