i was up for 21 hours on saturday. holy mary mother of God i was tired.

well, so far the money isn't worth the golf i play. on saturday i had one good hole. it was a par 3. i hit the first shot just off the green into a bunker/sand trap/whatever you want to call those annoying pieces of shiznit. my second shot out of the sand was uber. i took a full swing and the ball went within a few feet of the hole. putted it in for a par. other than that, i probably shouldn't play golf.

work was bearable. i had work for the whole day. i know, i was shocked too. i even have some left over for tomorrow. people from work are golfing right now. i just realized this. they go out every monday after work.

went to ByGrace with walker sunday. i liked it. they talked about relationships and hooking up (to paraphrase). i got alot of good stuff out of it. my problem is i feel like i can't use the knowledge correctly. i figure i'll screw something up. lately i've felt hopeless when it comes to girls. i get too weird around them. it's hard to be myself, no matter how hard i try. my fear is that i AM being myself and that awkward feeling is always going to be there.

i wish i was Joe Cool with the ladies. like strong bad. now there's a ladies man! i want to tell strong bad the same thing joe told me once. "if i were a girl, i'd be all over you!"